Owen Larkowsky
In this entry for the Orwell Prize for Reporting Homelessness, Owen Larkowsky writes about his experiences being homeless and what needs to change
Shocking - Scary - Unacceptable.
I personally have had first hand experience of being homeless. The permanent anxiety/fear that it bestows upon you. Constantly having to find new places to bed down for the night, repeatedly being moved on by shop owners/police, or generally being victimised/mocked by people with nothing better to do with their time than to prey on the weak, the vulnerable. Gangs praying on the homeless society, street dealers pushing crack heroin in front of you along with other drugs, offering you drugs/cash/clothes the occasional roof over your head if you work for them! The easy temptation and how easy it is to give in to temptation. Forced to walk the city during the colder nights in order to keep warm, watching passer-bys as they move through the city at night, going about their lives, watching as if in a trance.
The constant feeling of being lost, forgotten by society. Depression sets in, turning to alcohol to mask problems, a quick solution, blots out the cold too! The constant feeling that people are staring at me, due to the constant feeling of being dirty. No money to rent privately, and crying out to the council to help me to be told I'm not a priority. Months of asking the council to help to eventually stop asking them altogether, months on the street, the street slowly becomes the norm. The constant feeling of being outcasted, watching helplessly as other homeless people slowly begin to "fade away", watching as they run about the city "chasing their fix" or stealing to order in order to get cash to survive. Gangs repeatedly praying on the homeless day and night. Having to wash in public loos, shopping mall toilets in front of the public as they come and go during the day in order to stay clean. The embarrassment. At times being laughed at/mocked by people. The further sinking into depression, a feeling of a constant downward spiral, no structure to my day. Clothes stinking!
Watching as so many homeless people turn to drink and drugs. Seeing homeless females getting into strangers' cars, selling themselves in order to fund their drink/drug habit or to survive. Then turning to drink and drugs myself after months on the street, giving up. Hard to break out this cycle, leads to a life of crime then to jail. No real provision put in place for prisoners leaving prison, despite government stating help and support available.
If you have no accommodation upon release, some prisons do offer a sleeping bag! If you go to a bail hostel upon leaving prison as per some prisoner license terms, the bail hostel normally only keeps you for between two weeks and three months then you are homeless on the street. The cycle then repeats itself if you cannot break it, especially if you have no friends/support network.
What needs to change
I feel that councils should work harder to ensure that homeless people are given the help and support in finding accommodation. That the council has a duty of care to ensure that everyone in their area has a safe place to live/sleep. It is unacceptable that the UK has so many homeless on its streets.